Hurts…. So many thoughts. So many things to do. Pressure. Do work and practise for exams, secure a job, get fit and loose a whole lot of the fat I’ve gained, make difficult decisions, distract myself from other ones I can’t make.. I seem to think and worry, complain and give up so easy. I need to pull myself out of this dark hole and take charge in my life. I’m not happy at the moment. But I have to make myself happy. No one else can. Nobody is going to do it for me. Becoming one’s own person seems to be harder than I thought. But I want and need to. Become strong, happy, confident and independent. Be proud of myself.